we are getting back all the ground we lost. then we are breaking new ground. im done feeling like crap over you. im going to change that.
we are getting back all the ground we lost. then we are breaking new ground. im done feeling like crap over you. im going to change that.
your right it is affecting me more than you..im just trying to figure that all out.
you said you would never leave and yet you did. can i go through all that shit again?
rebuilding may not be a good idea. i mean its hard enough living without you.
but hey life goes on. even if we do start all over i feel i may not ever forgive you.
i cant let that interfere and ruin my feelings about you. idk maybe Im just mad things went the way they did.
i miss you like hell. god knows how i would react if i ever saw you in person today.
to be honest idk howd id react if i heard your voice or saw you in person. that scares me.
youve affected me so much and yet i feel i havent affected you at all.
idk just get outta my life i guess. actually i wish i could figure everything out. i mean if your in its pain if your out its pain, no win. but hey thats what meds are for so thankfully i got those. to keep me sane.
i wish i could erase that one day out of my mind forever. i didnt even say goodbye.
i blame myself.
i feel like if i hear your voice, I’m going to fucking cry. bitch shit i know. but I’m just afraid idk. its tough to function with you on my mind, every little thing..
why you? thats the fucking question
im going through a very rough time right now. im gonna go through some changes and im going to be ok. i think. i just need some help thats all. #Friends, Jeremy, anti-depressants, music, shit….
i miss you. fml
“Holding on I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking, maybe six feet ain’t so far down.” i got nothing left. no one left. so whatever jump right?
i mean why? why did i do all these things for you huh? you didnt do shit for me but yet i still did shit for ya. but yet again story of my life i get nothing in return and yet im done caring. caring is eating me up inside. i havent been this depressed ever. im so sad and angry. wearing a mask isnt fun at all. im so unhappy. you have no idea how unhappy i am. nor the things ive tried to do this week, or the things ive been through this week. just feel better. and please turn your life around god i hope you do. then i can leave you without none of us getting hurt. i wish we never met. your right im gonna go get drunk. i at least forget you for a little while. i hate you i hate you i hate you.
im done getting close to people. keep your god dam feelings and shit to yourself im done. im done caring im done being that nice guy whoose there for everyone while those people just talk shit and walk all over me. im so done. im nothing to you. nothing i say or do will ever change that. i mean if that person didnt exist youd probably be dead already. i dont mean shit to you. the words and things ive done hasnt done shit. i dont want to get close to anyone anymore. im shutting down. holding it all in. being friends with myself. im being selfish here. all i hope is that your going to be ok. then once thats over with i can shy away from the world. idk maybe this is outta anger or something idc. weve been through alot in these short months. just get back on your feet and take off your goddam mask. bc i hate wearing mine all the time. especially around you. you have no idea what ive been through this week. worst week of my life. i think this is the good excuse to start to forget you. i never met you. period.
